Monday, July 14, 2014

two years.

two lives.. two beautiful souls taken two years ago way too soon.

 Dez was one of my very best friends. The one who never needed an invitation to come over, who knew the garage code and always knew when to bring a bottle of sangria. Bobby was her boyfriend, the one who made her smile and completely won her heart over. I couldn't tell you how many times I heard Dez say she was going to marry Bobby. She would have made the most beautiful bride and if you really knew Dez.. she already had her wedding planned out.. at Disney World :) The two of them were taken two years ago by a drunk driver and I will never forget the phone call I got from one of our friends. 

My heart aches for her family, especially on days like today. I know there are a million things that will bring me to tears in a heartbeat because they just remind me so much of her. Most of the time I just imagine that she's traveling with Bobby and it's just been a while since I've heard from her. Other times I'll see her in a dream and wish I could hold onto that dream just a little longer. I know I will see her again and I know she hears me when I talk to her.. when I tell Rae about her.. I know that one day she's going to give me the biggest hug and we'll be able to laugh and cry and catch up just like we used to.

but today, today I just miss her.

but even when I miss her the most, I find comfort in knowing she's always there. Decire will always be a part of my life, there are times I'll be on the phone with another really close friend and we just giggle over her insaneness and what she would say in certain situations. Handsome hears me say I miss her or this or that reminds me of Decire, there are even times when we stop in the hallway to look at the collage of pictures I have of us. Sure there are days when I just want to pick up the phone and hear her voice, ask her how Bobby and her are doing, tell her we're expecting another baby but I know in time we'll be able to talk about all though things. I feel so blessed to have had her apart of my life for as long as I did. 


  1. I don't know quite what to say, other than prayers and thoughts to you and to your dear friends' families xx

  2. My prayers and thoughts are with you. 13 years ago July 1st I lost my BFF/sister to a drunk driver and druged up driver it very hard to loose someone at a young age.

  3. Karra, what you wrote was beautiful. I'm positive she was right there with you when you wrote this & loved it! In fact, I KNOW she was with us as we stayed up until midnight texting #tbt pictures. She was dying with us, for sure! She was one heck of a friend & will always be missed terribly. One day we all giggle together as angels & she will do our makeup and nails. Love your post & you & her!

    P.S. I see you just couldn't resist with your "fun" picture... lol

  4. Truly a beautiful post, but oh so sad. I'm so sorry for you and all her friends and family. Hard to lose somebody so close to you.